Leaving hospital

Weekends in hospital are dismal especially stuck in your own room. Everything slows down. Knowing you have to tough it out because Monday brings home means the weekend will just drag more. I've been in a cocoon for 3 weeks and whilst I want out badly I am also terrified of managing outside. I've had a real mixed bag of emotions including some very dark ones that scare me. I've gotta grasp at positives. My gorgeous family and my stunning friends are all there for me. I've got to see this as a post chemo thing and life will feel better. It has to it just has to.